Sunday, May 24, 2009
six days later? oi hoi yoi. here it is: i got a "stable" report in Houston, ultrasound and CT agree—nothing's grown, nothing's receded further. Dr. Ross's comfort level (and mine) is being pushed, so this verdict: wait and watch one more 2-month period. If it's receded, wait and watch some more. If it's the same or grown, then begin treatment, possibly with surgery. The tests then, the last week in July, will be more whole body again, just to be sure it's not reaching elsewhere without saying so.
=== Saturday, July 25, given good health until then, I am highly tempted to appear at a midday reading i'm invited to participate in as one of 4 that day, as part of the greater International Poetry Festival in SF, probly at a library. So I'll fly there enroute to Houston for the re-re-testings.
=== In the meantime I am determined to uncompromisingly nurture my body's healing capacities. This determination has elicited a list, including warm humid deciduous climate, extra sleep by 8 or 9 every nite, minimal sugar and meat if any, regular contact (by any means necessary) with spirit which includes of course YOU my family and friends my human community, and doing my extensioned taxes if i am able along thuh way.
=== The first item on that list has landed me somehow yesterday on Jacksonville Illinois in the home of my first cousin Charlie and his wife Lynne's new-location home with his new practice (surgery) here. I went to church in what I am wearing (I took my hat off inside) and these are two pictures my macbook has took of me with my bedroom window open up there and the trees it looks out on, all on Charlie's property. I'm sitting out in this weather my body has hungered for without telling me quite how much in all honesty since I left Chucawgo in 2003. Things might change, but my plan is to be nice and indulge in my welcome here for 2 months if I can. And to keep in touch with you and even encourage your considerin visiting me here maybe.
=== my snail mail address then is me c/o Charlie & Lynne Sheaff, 36 Sunset Drive, Jacksonville IL 62650-2736. my Skype phone # continues to be (505) 349-4563. and my e-address follows me around all this too. i'm still keeping my room in my apartment in SF until i can muster the time and concept of moving (and figger where to!). life is moving VER fast. but i intend to slow down here a tad.
=== i should say i got here after a day of researching all the ways i could come with last-minute highprice airfares and such and at the last last minute i checked craigslist-houston and found a ride-share leaving for chicago at the very hour i found it--with immense support and love from my couchsurf family there, i was able to jump on and we drove straight through (well a 3 hr. reststop nap) 19 hrs, 925 miles, new toyoto tundra (lotta gas), thank you Ramon. this should give us all hope: i'm still very marty. love. me
Monday, May 18, 2009
It's been a while. Sorry. I am not getting to all my intentions these days. But some very well travelled intentions are come to fruition. It is time i said something in here. Oh my oh me. The biggest thing was our graduation performance here in SF on May 9 Saturday. Innumerable people came for it and i was preparing to be very embarrassed for all those coming to see my measly and unprepared 5 minute piece of it. However, things came together, including me finding by "accident" that very morning my 2-years' lost and given up for gone forever—i was truly mourning—bamboo flutes made by Senya and Afra!
My finger tips and lips had fogotten no thing, and I played the tune of my chant on one of them just like a bird. I am so blessed with all that comes to me these days! Winifred visited from Seattle for 6 days, with Beth McKee from Portland for 2; and once young Simon Hatfield from Saint Croix via LA with his contageously fond friend Anne came for 24 hours! Lots of nearer dear friends and family. The whole show and audience was beyond anyone's expectations. My men's group (mkp.org) brother Gerry Powell brought his sculpture of me i've been modelling for since October, fresh outa thuh kiln! Okay i can't tell it all.
Cousin Mac who started this blog was there and all so has compiled my thesis from it's seven files into one tight handy PDF file i or he can e-you if you like. That i turned in wednesday May 6, and my last class and 20 pp. class paper (doubling as intro to thesis) was May 10. Yesterday, May 18, I graduated whuth a MFA in Writing and Consciousness, at California Institute of Integral Studies.
I continue to feel well, with a minor no-fever and no energy-loss throat and nose stuff which gave me laryngitis which i used as a wonderful prop for my performance. Today i fly to Houston for repeat CTscan and UltraSound tests tomorrow, for comparison, to determine if my cancer is advancing or continuing to retreat. Much may be decided soon as to treatment, or not. I could go quickly into surgery, or not. I am feeliing in deep rich loving company going into this next week. My couchsurfing family in Houston is taking me in a third time, at least for the beginning. I have a ticket to return to SF in 6 days, but may well not do that, depending on results and conclusions from my tests. I will do my best to post news on here as I know it, or have Mac do it if I'm too scatterbrained.
The statue is by Gerry Powell, it's photo is by cousin Betsy Davids. The photo of me is by Emily Rhoades-Clark, Susan's daughter in ABQ, just graduated (from h.s.) too!
. ........................................ a Blessed Boy Marty here, with love.