Thursday, September 3, 2009

i'm in JAX, as they say here.

i'm in Jacksonville IL again, after cancelling my own self-offered carrot for will to live = a trip to Indianapolis to attend the memorial of the mother of all us mothers of the radical Naptown 60's, Jane Haldeman. It will be nice for all those there who were also there in 1968-72 as I was and haven't seen each other since. Immense days. But I need to rest often and on demand. I have low energy and low stamina—which is to be expected, Marty. So I finally had the sense to cancel that trip and take a free "Rapid Rewards" last-minute switch flight from HOU to STL and cousin Lynne picked me up and drove me the 2-hr rt. 67 north from there to Jacksonville.

Here I have no deadlines in the forseable future. I can sleep the whole thing if I want. But after 10+ hours of sleep last nite, after lying down and resting the whole afternoon, 4 hours, I felt like getting up and ended up vacuuming my whole room lock stock and barrel in true Marty fashion. Then i took a nother nap. Now I'm hungry and can just go down and eat. This was the right decision.

I've a few symptoms that may well go away--fuzzy vision and compromised jaw and lower lip muscles/movement, but i am fully able to see what i need to see (including this fine print as i key it in) and eat what i want to eat so far. And I am happy. Immense love and support in Houston from José and Winifred and the Sallans family, my couchsurfing angels.

The big thing of the moment is waiting for biopsy reports regarding everything surgeon Dr. Ross took out. I am not anxious or overwrought in this wait. It'll be in a few days, by phone. And if not, I'm still relaxed, it'll come when it comes. What it will affect is future treatment plans, which are likely not to truly form or begin for at least 3 weeks.

Does this sound like Marty? I sound like Marty to me. This last week I certainly did not always. Ask José and Winifred. But they both agree I do now I think. I love every one of you looking in here with your loving support. My energy for correspondence should be fair to middlin in a few days. Love. Marty


  1. i am sending loving healing thoughts your way marty. sorry i will not get to see/hug you at jane's memorial, but i know you will be there in spirit.

  2. thank you ruth. yer 100% correct on the spirit presence. and i'm receiving yer loving healing thoughts!

  3. thank you susan. i love your blog. can i post the address here? still soundin good.