Sunday, August 21, 2011

dour demure anniversary. Fri., Aug. 26, 7-7, please come.

OK I'm going to do this. All are invited to my house for soup all day 7am-7pm Friday August 26. May be mandatory 5-minute writing exercise. No presents. Presence. Please.

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reason i'm dour, demure, late in getting this out, and haven't started making soup until today is i'd held, and i'm sure've announced in here, that if i made it 2 years without recurrence then i'd be less than 5% chance of recurrence thereafter, well, i was wrong: it's 20%, and that's a big difference to my little heart, very hard adjustment to make along with the fact that 2 fellow diagnosees i have met in person are experiencing recurrences. (most recurrences with this variety are untreatable and aggressive.) these past 2 weeks have been a deep spiritual reconciliation for me with life. with you and with me. i'm here, i'm okay now i think. but it's going to be a very different celebration than i had envisioned. low key and sweet. and yes. presence. a sacred form of life.
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you may be present in absentia as well. just write for 5 minutes anytime on Friday August 26 with the prompt: "What I am alive for this minute." of course if you have five minutes, you mite have 5 sections, one for each minute— ... in other words, anything goes, you may violate all instructions except "write". please send your thus written presences to me, if you will.

if you are unsure what we are celebrating with this presence, there are archived posts herein for August 25 and 26 2009 that could explain. last time cancer was seen in me.

i am happy to be alive and to share this life with you this moment. love. marty


  1. Sent you two poems with original artwork Marty. Hope your day exceeds your expectations, unless of course you expected to be bummed. Dwell on what is lovely and beautiful. know that while we are truly always alone, there are people to share with. iB1. Tell me my friend, what kind of music are you listening to?

  2. marty,

    i celebrate this milestone with you today from Hotlanta! thank you for your support in my merkel cell cancer journey and the well wishes on my recent marriage to Shari.

    i am happy to be alive and having completed my 8th cycle of chemo in my third round of battle with the disease i decided to write cancer a little letter which i featured on my blog yesterday, and thought it might be something worthy of sharing here to commemorate this occasion.


    ¨ ¨ ¨ ¨ ¨ ¨ ¨ ¨ ¨

    Dear cancer,

    As you know I’m finishing my 3rd round of chemo and with this being my 8th and final cycle it is time for me to rest.

    These last four months you have done your best to fill my mind with all you’re “what if” whispers:

    -What if the radiation & chemo didn’t get it all the cancer…

    -What if the new spot in my femur is not new good cell growth…

    -What if last week’s adrenal gland biopsy didn’t get as good of a sample as was thought and the cancer has spread…

    -What if…

    -What if…

    -What if…

    Cancer you created those “what ifs”, but it is I who gets to choose not only what I hear…but also what I believe!

    So rather than live a life as if I have an asterisk after my name and an expiration date on my chest, I choose not to whisper back at you but to shout:

    Cancer you’ve taken your shots, three to be correct

    and if there were to be a cell or a speck of you left after all the chemo and radiation I got

    I will continue to place my faith and trust in God to take care of what the medicine did not!

    Life Goes On!…in the midst of life’s trials and on the other side of those trials…Life Goes On!

    please take Good care my friend!

    at your side as you have always been at mine!!


  3. wow. thank you Marc and Tom my two comrades on this journey. it is so dear to have you post on here—and on my anniversary. many more to each of us. thank you for your pomes & artwork, marc. and thank you for this letter-post, tom. i deeply appreciate sharing the journey in words and image. what kind of music am i listening to? i missed hearing Gary Lane play piano one more time! but i have a CD of his. deep purple is a favorite of mine. heard my mother play it maybe once or twice. she'd memorized it i think when she was in high school. i just love the shifts in the melody!
    brother love. marty